Someone recently asked me about why this site is named Days of Plenty.  After all, you wouldn't normally associate pregnancy loss with a phrase such as days of plenty... So, here is the story.

We lost our first daughter, Alia Jane, in April of 2008.  I went back to work after a few weeks.  I was lost, I was scared and I was so very sad.  I was listening to an online radio station that played broadway music (I know.. but I like it!).  And this song came on.  And it took the air out of my lungs.

The song comes from a broadway play entitled "Little Woman", which is based on the beloved novel by Louisa May Alcott.   If you haven't read the book, first of all you should, and second of all avert your eyes.  Major spoiler ahead.  The song comes at the point in the story where Amy has died.  Jo asks Marmie how she could possibly go on and this is her response:

I never dreamed of this sorrow,
I never thought I'd have reason to lament,
I hoped I'd never know heartbreak,
How I wish I could change the way things went!
I wanted nothing but goodness,
I wanted reason to prevail,
Not this bare emptyness.
I wanted Days of Plenty.

But I refused to feel tragic,
I am aching for more than pain and grief.
There has got to be meaning,
Most of all when a life has been so brief.
I have got to learn something,
How can I give her any less?
I want life to go on.
I want Days of Plenty

You have to Believe,
There is reason for Hope.
You have to Believe
That the answers will come.
You can't let this defeat you.
I won't less this defeat you.
You must fight to keep her there,
Within you!

So Believe that she matters!
And Believe that she always will!
She will always be with you!
She'll be part of the days you've yet to feel!
She will live in your bounty!
She will live as you carry on your life!

So carry on,
Full of Hope,
She'll be there,

For all your Days of Plenty

And here is the lovely Maureen McGovern singing the song.  I hope you love it as much as I do.